After two months of work, I’ve released version 1.0 of Snowflake, a programming language and interpreter I created. You can download the source code on GitHub.
This language was designed for a rudimentary calculator-sized pocket computer I’ve been working on with my partner. If you’re wondering whether to use this for your own microcontroller project, I’d say no, and to use something like MicroPython. Mine is a toy language I made purely for fun.
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National Post writer Christie Blatchford passed away last month, resulting in a flurry of articles praising her career in Canadian mainstream media.
The experience of reading Blatchford’s articles was very different as a trans person. She regularly used her platform to advocate for a world free of those perceived to be gender non-conforming. In her estimation, it was those who advocated for the erasure of the gender diverse who were the true victims.
This weekend I got my first tattoo: a stick and poke with Jay and Joy’s names. They are two very special people in my life; who are bffs / ex’s / chosen family all wrapped into one.
The tattoo was done by my friend Olivier, who did it all at my place.
I mapped out some of the ways that high-profile anti-trans advocates in Canada are related. The chart is a mess because these transphobes are highly interconnected:
While there are hundreds of thousands of trans or gender non-conforming people in Canada, it only takes a handful of cisgender individuals to harass people at Pride parades, fill newspapers with transphobic vitriol, and architect an opposition to our rights in Parliament. This handful amplify each other while occupying positions of power furthering the very reach that is denied to the hundreds of thousands of voices they lobby against.
In such a ecosystem, it becomes very easy for a previously unknown person with views that are marketable by these anti-trans advocates to be amplified and in turn be made an amplifier. This is what happened with Lindsay Shepherd, whose only involvement was that she was a T/A that was reprimanded by her university administrators for showing without context a transphobic exchange featuring Jordan Peterson, another member of this ecosystem. The National Post wrote 29 articles supporting Lindsay Shepherd from authors like Barbara Kay and her son Jonathan Kay. Now Lindsay Shepherd an author with the National Post, is an author with The Post Millennial (Barbara Kay is a contributor there), is a fellow with the Justice Centre for Constitutional Freedoms (Barbara Kay is on the boards of directors there), is a writer at Quillette (Jonathan Kay is an editor there). Shepherd promotes other members of this ecosystem like Meghan Murphy in her work. This past fall Jonathan Kay and Meghan Murphy were on a panel together moderated by Lindsay Shepherd named “How Media Bias Shapes the Gender Identity Debate“. The self-amplification is constant.
It is frustrating that a handful of cisgender people are able to have such a disproportionate influence in shaping the dialog around the rights of hundreds of thousands of trans and gender non-conforming individuals. On the outset, they appear to be independent voices representing many more, when in reality, they’re only representing each other.
It’s been one year since I’ve had bottom surgery.
The healing process has run its course. I am glad I had the surgery. I sleep much better now that I don’t have my sleep interrupted by spiro-induced runs to the washroom. I feel safer wearing tight-fitting clothes in public spaces. I feel less frightened in change rooms. I feel like there’s fewer worse-case scenarios travelling.
I have mixed feelings about the surgical results. I opted for what the surgeon termed a vaginoplasty without vaginal cavity. It was the right decision. I’ve never liked sex; and going this route means I wouldn’t have to dilate. Meanwhile, I have a clit, and I’ve had no problem masturbating and reaching orgasm.
But when it comes to external appearance of my vulva, the results weren’t what I had expected. I had seen photos of the genitalia of other trans women following surgery online, and theirs looked indistinguishable from cis women’s. This was not the case for me. My labia is an asymmetric fold of fat with a crease that goes much further up the front of the body than a cis person’s. So while I am pleased I had bottom surgery, and do not regret it by any stretch, I also feel some disappointment.
I also feel significant reservations about sending people to the surgeon I saw in Montreal. While the surgeon was friendly when I talked to him for the first time an hour before surgery, and the staff were great during my stay, the experience of dealing with their staff before my stay and after was quite negative. There was no meaningful follow-up and communicating with them was like pulling teeth.
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